I’ve been feeling myself fall into a downward spiral.

I know what triggered it (won’t dive into it), but I’m in awe as to how aware I am. I know exactly what is causing me to feel down and I’m seeing that every little thing is effecting me.

I’m trying to crawl out of this hole, but I can’t.

I just can’t.

And you know what? It’s okay.

In the words of Poppy, “life isn’t always cupcakes and rainbows.”

We can’t always be happy and thriving; sometimes we are down and need to reflect. That’s where I am. For a bit over a week, I’ve just been really down. I noticed myself isolating from “the world;”  it’s just what I do as an introvert.

I was also going to call out of work last week for my spin class, since you need to be high energy and I was just drained.

There weren’t many people there so it actually worked out well since those who were there are people who push really hard. It gave me the boost [and sweat] that I needed for the day.This past weekend, I went to the beach with the kiddos and on Sunday, I headed out for a Getaway. This mini trip couldn’t have come at a better time. I’m hoping that it helps reset my mindset – I really need it.As an introvert, being completely alone is needed. It helps me to reflect, regroup and reassess everything that is going on. It helps fill my cup and it just helps relieve all the anxiety I feel. Maybe i’m just finding more comfort in being alone.

The more time passes from my ex, the more at peace I feel with myself. I grew up with two younger brothers and eventually (probably around 12) they didn’t want to play with me anymore. 

So, I got used to entertaining myself by reading and learning.

It seems I still to retreat to that.

One day at a time.